I feel dead inside.. Tranny Hookup

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by RegretFullestFappin, Apr 30, 2018.

  1. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

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    Any thoughts or similar experiences?
     
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  2. Outis

    Outis New Member

    If it's a problem for you, it's a problem for you. I, personally, am an open-minded person and am more attracted to people's personalities and wouldn't mind if someone was a transgender. I think society has a lot of expectations of what a woman is and what a man is and that may be contributing, but then again, we all have inner reasons for doing things and feeling things. But I for one do not think hooking up with or dating a transsexual is wrong or detracts from masculinity. And if a woman has a problem with what you did, then she probly doesn't like you for who you are and is a bitch man. haha
     
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  3. Mirrrah

    Mirrrah Member

    Did you start watching tranny porn or did you develop that from excessive porn consumption?

    You basically had sex with a man; if you don't normally consider yourself to be gay then this should serve as a huge wake up call and eye opener as to how your sexuality is being twisted from porn use.
     
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  4. NewTerritories

    NewTerritories virtual

    You did something out-of-alignment with some principle you try to hold to. The idea of this hookup was, some time, incompatible with your self-image. Maybe you considered it disgusting. But it seems porn weakens the disgust-sensitivity. It changed your brain, and so you changed your behaviors. Realise that no matter how dead and defeated you feel... you don't have to keep being the sort of person who does that. You can change your brain again! In fact, you're already doing it if you're reading these words.

    I recommend you never tell anyone unless you're anonymous, or you totally trust them, and they're men. Don't tell girls! Unless you're married with kids and she's stuck with you, lol.
     
  5. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member


    Thats just the thing.... No matter what . I cant go around with this ultimate self confidence that attracts girls to me. Knowing I have this sick dark secret... Im not a pure man that goes after only the most beautiful girls as I would tell them... I got with two men throughout my Lifetime.. I find it disgusting..

    It was 3 years ago when I was an 18yo virgin and taking my moms anti depressants to numb my self. And it worked.. I did and things I would never do.. It was like a dream I just didnt care fuck it I said..

    Btw we kissed and made out a little thats it... No one sucked my dick or vise versa... I did kiss ones chest... One tranny who looked just like a women wanted to come over and Fuck.. I denied it.. Thank God I still had a little bit of my old self in there.....

    I kissed two men... No other young stud would do that.. I feel... stained.. I cant keep this dark dark perverted secret.. I look at myself as this very masculine guy who gets a lot of females... But This came back and it haunts me.. Im pathetic...

    I cant be someones goodlooking stud boyfriend.. If any girl knew the truth on how I made out with a TRANNY. They wouldnt look at me the same.. Fuck it
     
  6. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

    Read my comment bellow.... I got deep into sick porn.. Since i was 10 I would fap to torture porn. BDSM on women.. Then Face sitting and femdom.. Then as I took my moms Antidepressant pills it numbed me totally.. I started looking at sissy shit.....

    Then Thats when the dirtiness and depravity of getting with a hot tranny got to me.. My gay friend told me about Grindr and how easy it was to get with people...

    I was like WOW that is so cool !! Ill DL that and tinder!! I found a hot tranny my age and we ... yeah.... Made out..... I kissed a tranny and felt their tongue.. Its not a woman.. Its a man.. At the time I was a fucking.. I didnt give a heck what I did... I found it erotic... Wow... I Cant function and go on with happiness knowing If anyone of my future girlfriends knew.. Thatd think of me like a freak or less of a man...

    Thats WHY nofap is so hard.. Because As I gain self respect.. I lose it quick... For what I done.. I deserve to be a Porn addict loser
     
  7. spoofy

    spoofy Active Member

    Meh just a kiss? it's not gay if balls don't touch bro
     
  8. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

    I kissed TWO MEN... Idc if they looked like women.. They are biologically MEN.. Its disgusting. Sick.. Pathetic. and unworthy of life..
     
  9. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    I have a feeling you wouldn't pass a polygraph about being attracted to men despite the 1950s rhetoric you're spewing. It sounds like your repression runs deep and my guess is that there's some kind of trauma in your background that not only caused an attraction to extreme forms of porn, but also has attempted to hardwire what "acceptable" and "disgusting" sexual behavior is. What are you hoping to get here? The silver bullet sentence that makes what you did OK in your mind? How about "Then forget about it and move on." Here's a little tip moving forward...don't refer to yourself as a young stud. A real one doesn't need to point it out. It just makes you sound like someone who denying their bisexuality or homosexuality.
     
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  10. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member


    You think Im gay? I WISH I WAS BI SEXUAL. I WOULD OWN THAT SHIT AND SAY . Hey what I did was okay!! Id be so free I wouldnt be ashamed at all!! But the thing is... IM NOT.. Im completely straight so the fact that I kissed two men goes completely against my SEXUALITY AND IDENTITY.. I FEEL DISGUSTED.. I feel like I kissed a mans asshole.... Its gross.... Im straight THATS WHY its disgusting to me and traumatic.. If i was BI OR GAY Id be HAPPY and Free but IM NOT!! Get it? Ignorant Jackass >.>
     
  11. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    When did you first start liking guys?
     
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  12. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

    Troll will troll.
    Bro are you here to help or nah... Srs.. I didnt come here to fuck around with trolls.. this isnt youtube.. Bro I fucked up Ik.. But I REALLY wouldnt do that again and its gross because Im not as desperate as I was to kiss a tranny..
     
  13. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    Well then I guess that's progress. Now lose the homophobia. You're the last person who should be judging others.
     
  14. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

    Why am I the last person? I KISSED a tranny and can tell you its disgusting.. Dont do it.
     
  15. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member

    Homophobia? They are MEN. Im sick of it. If i get famous in my city the tranny will be like OHH I KISSED HIM HEHE.. Its like GET OUT OF MY LIFE IM FUCKING SICK OF THIS WHY EVEN TRY ANYMORE..
     
  16. Joshua Shea

    Joshua Shea Active Member

    So you're a young stud who's planning on being famous? I'm starting to wonder who the troll is here.
    If you are for real, get over it. Move on with your life.
     
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  17. Fortune20

    Fortune20 Member

    Ive hooked up wit trannies before ... It bothers u crazy at first especially if you're whole life youve been wit women but in reality lookin back at it a couple years down the line, you come to find out its not that serious ... My last encounter with one was in 2015 and I will say I enjoyed it ... I no longer mess with them and just stick to women now ... Ive told two girls ive fucked before this secret and although they initially were judgemental they were completely supportive a lil later on (Ive known them for years and built a strong relationship wit them outside of sex)... In fact, because of how confident I was talking about this with them both still want to fuck me again ... One eventually even told me shes currently talkin to a transgender herself .. Bro just take the experience for what it is, move and live ur life ... Thats exactly what I did ... I will say I identify wit being a straight male since that was years back but if because of my past someone will say Im gay or bi so be it ... Im just that confident in who I am and learned that people will always have an opinion about shit but its just that ... An opinion

    What gave me peace is after all that I sit back and realize that nothing about who I am has changed at all ... Im still the same masculine guy that I knew since day one that loves women ... Dont stress it trust me and just meditate and pursue peace .. The bashing you are doing on here it will only lead to more pain and resentment towards yourself and others ... Learn to be more accepting and open minded to people and there backgrounds because we all are facing our own demons on this journey that we call life ... Truthfully speaking there are prolly men you KNOW or met who are dealing with this same issue as well hence due to tranny porn bein one of top genres in America right now (just look it up) .. But because of the fear of bein stigmatized they choose to let it quietly eat them inside ... That was me and its really a shame ... Eventually down the line this will all not be a big deal as society is leaning towards being more accepting towards peoples different issues ... You will be fine my brother .. God bless
     
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  18. RegretFullestFappin

    RegretFullestFappin New Member


    So you've actually had Sex with a tranny and haven't killed yourself? Jokes aside. I wish I was as confident as you if your srs.. And if you told them exactly They were judgmental. Of course they would be.... Im just a fuckup.. If I didnt do it Id be so happy. i was so happy before..... But I wouldnt Judge anyone who did like you........ Idgaf personally I say your straight but for me it bothers me . I think about it every waking day
    I only kissed them and kissed ones tits 3 years ago and Im fucking about to end it idgaf. No I wont.. But Ill just be a miserable fuck. I dont know how you do it.. I feel unpure.. Idc about being a manslut or kissing a girls shit covered asshole... I even licked a girls foot before for fun.. But thats women..

    I kissed two men... I never knew Id have such low standards... I want to be a guy with only high standards
     
  19. Fortune20

    Fortune20 Member

    Yep ive had sex wit them before .. No big deal really ... Actually I think because of that incident im no longer a judgemental person lol ... I see every single walkin human being, flaws and all and let them be ... Its really wonderful the different perspective I got on life based on those experiences ... Bro I feel you on the standards thing though ... Like before I did that shit I was watching porn for 4 or 5 yrs and eventually I started escalating out of a depleted dopamine system

    After yrs of dealing with homophobia and feeling grossed out about watchin it, I caved in to a real life experience at 22 ... Mind you before, my whole life up until 19 all I ever thought about was females .. This slippery slope happened on and off for yrs and eventually I decided I had enough .. Im 26 about to be 27 and havent been wit one since 24 ... So yea I feel your pain ... It made me sick to my stomach doin wat I did and I did ask myself why I was even alive ... Couple years later, now I just chalk it up as that ... An experience ... You will bounce back .. Thats it bro .. Its just one of many experiences you go through in life ... You find out more about yourself, figure out things you like or not and decide if thats something you would like to further pursue ... If you dont like it you just keep it pushing

    Word of advice though, just go cold turkey from porn, work on being more accepting and less judgemental, do things that take your time away from those thoughts, pray and meditate ... The urges will slowly go as you move away from it ... All these things have helped me tremendously ... I just feel sorry for the young kids these days ... I know for a fact porn warped my mind and for a point, made me something I couldnt recognize ... I just pray something is done about this because this shit will have alot of kids confused about their sexuality and who they are as a person at an early stage in life.
     
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  20. spoofy

    spoofy Active Member

    Sorry mate that's a loser attitude, kissing trannies doesn't sound like the core problem here.

    Hey mate plz avoid talking actual sense here, don't wanna disturb the ppl busy in self monologues ey
     

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