Hello, I am new to the community here, but I found a link from yourbrainonporn.com that sent me here and most of the information on that website described my situation to a T. So here is my story.
I always was a nerdy kid in middle school, then in high school I got deep into drugs. I smoked a lot of weed, did a lot ecstasy, acid, shrooms, painkillers, and pretty much everything. I never really had a girlfriend or was sexually active my whole life, but now I am in college and quit doing all the drugs and realized I am missing out on one of the greatest natural experiences a human being can have.
So my lack of a love life for, well my entire life, led me to masturbate and watch a lot of porn since I was like 13. Then when I got my own computer when I was 17, I really started going crazy. Over the past few months thing have gotten hot and heavy between a lady friend of mine and now we are dating. I actually just love my virginity a few days ago and it was amazing, except I was drunk as all hell and had to take 100mg of viagra to get it up. I have a prescription for viagra because of my earlier days of being a druggie, I learned how to tell doctors whatever I had to in order to get whatever drugs I wanted. I have had tried to have sex twice before this new girl and both times the same thing happened, I could not get an erection. I didn't think I was that nervous so I never really understood what the problem was. I was freaking out and thinking maybe I was gay, but I never watched gay porn, I actually loved lesbian stuff the most. Then I found out about porn ed and it seems like that is the problem.
So I have been porn free for a week, but I took 200mg of viagra over the course of 2 days and had sex both of those days, but I only ejaculated once. Then the day after my girlfriend came over and I tried to bang her again without taking viagra because I was horny all day and had a huge erection while she was over until it came time for me to penetrate her. She told me I wasn't hard enough and we continued to makeout but then my penis shut down. I was hugely embarrassed and so was she. I didn't completely ruin things between us but if I don't rock her world next time I might be in trouble.
I know I can't keep taking viagra if I want to fix my ed, but I am wondering if it is ok if I don't masturbate or watch porn while I'm rebooting, but still have sex and take viagra until I get where I need to be.
I am also taking 3 grams of l-arginine, 1 gram of ginseng, 60mg of gingko biloba, and some maca root too.