Doing my reboot has forced me to reflect on other behaviours and tendencies besides viewing pornography.
What i have noticed is that all of my addictions ; porn, masturbation, drinking, smoking, and compulsive internet viewing all have a couple of things in common.
1) They are all solo activities , they are all about me and do not involve other people. The end result is social isolation.
2) They all are to do with pleasure and the compulsive seeking nature of it.
3) None of the addictions tend to involve heart based feelings ; feelings of connection or care or appreciation or anything like that.
I have been reflecting on the fact that i feel very cut off from my feelings. Whether this is due to the porn or not i do not know.
I can only describe it as an emotional numbness and a disconnection.
My question is to you is , has anyone else experienced this emotional numbness? Is it connected to the porn issue? Did it improve with time? What did you do to resolve it?