Trans porn addict

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Mard dog, Aug 3, 2018.

  1. Mard dog

    Mard dog New Member

    I can say that I’ve been looking at shemale porn for over 15 years now I’m 30 half my life. I started off by looking at gay porn but that just didn’t seem right. I moved on to shemales because of the feminine way about them with that masculinity that always got me. I was drawn to the look of the eyes with the makeup that just didn’t look the way a woman does. And I have been mesmerized by the take charge dominant shemales that for lack of a better word bang there man. It was always just a fantasy for me until I was 22 years old that’s the first time i went off and hooked up with an escort. Up until about a year or so ago it hasn’t seemed to be an issue I would just go off and make it with an escort whenever I got screwed up enough on drugs and alcohol. I can’t seem to live with myself these days. I’ve got a wife that I’ve been with for over 11 years. Just before I met my first escort. We’re having a baby in November and tonight I went out and had sex with a transgender escort. I said this is the last time I do that and cocaine. But is it really? I have started to distance myself from close friends because of my cocaine habit whitch co ensidest with my transsexual porn addiction I look for time alone to look at porn or visit escorts. I am a terrible person and probably need help. When I look at porn or see an escort it’ always dominant anal stuff. Is it because I secretly want to be with a man? I don’t know because I’m not attracted to men Only the masculine looking tranny’s or a real muscular woman. I don’t know what to do and all the stress of keeping this inside is finally starting to get to me.
     
  2. jack91

    jack91 Find your way throuh Staff Member

    Looking at your text reminds me how lost we are. Me too, i used drugs and watched porn for decade. Now ready to do whatever it takes to get out. Look to spirituality. It can help you.
     

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