Tearing Down the Walls, Part 2.

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Billy B., Oct 23, 2016.

  1. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Day 295> Thrrsdee
    Hard Reboot: no P, no M, no O no Fantasy and only a couple lil' slips momentarily distracted by sub-style click-bait (peeking only).

    Day 139> Cannabis-free (for a good while, at least)

    Down from a not outrageously excessive (but daily) habit, more or less consistent the last few years. As a friend said recently: the level of usage is less important than if it's enhancing or detracting from one's life and in my case daily usage was a definite negative (I feel sooooo much better).

    Day 139> Back on to a full dose (60mg) of anti-depressant (Duloxetine)

    Day 88> Off the ciggies (and day 12 off the patches!).

    Day 27> Of severely restricted Caffeine intake.

    I've had a problem with my wees (not to mention my digestion) and this is part of my plan to sort it. I tried going without but only lasted a week or so. Since then have managed limit it to one every other day or so. Hmmmm. I can feel it helps me with my wees, to be off it, so I need to strongly consider complete abstinence for a period.


    Other than that I've been busy busy busy enjoying the life I deserve to live and working hard to improve things further (now that I have the time and energy). I do have things I want to write about and sometimes miss being a daily support for the rest of yas, but... it's about priorities, and right now I've got too much else going on that is inspiring and engaging and all of this udda things....

    For you blokes still struggling, please don't give up: after nearly ten months along this path I can honestly say that it's the best thing I've done for myself in, like... forever.

    Just do it!

    Love yas.

    True. Xx
    Last edited: Aug 10, 2017
  2. fcjl8

    fcjl8 The only path for me

    Hi Billy,

    Great to see your posi post! Awesome that you are 10 months down this wonderful path to freedom. Man, you are so awesome.

    Love you brother.
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  3. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Thanks, Man. :)
  4. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    Are Nike paying you now for advertising on this forum?? Haha, stay out of my subconscious Billy, i'm an Adidas guy. You know, good ol 'German engineering'.

    Your noting of days off of things is really impressive. I dont think its just because im easily impressed. Not as strange as Thrrsdee but then again where i'm from we call 'ciggies' here 'fags'. To imagine how uncalled for it'd be if I asked a yank for a fag, or to light me one. Yikes, we keeps it real down 'ere, d'you know wat i mean G? I represent so 'ard dat i can run for Parliament, boo-yaa-kash-aaa.

    Lastly, congratulations Bullish Bill, you are killing it still, my dear lad.
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  5. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Yes, we sometimes refer to them as fags in Aust, too. That's cause we're more or less half-baked poms, anyway. ;)

    Cheers for the posi-vibes, Bro. :rolleyes:
  6. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Day 90> Off the ciggies (and day 14 off the patches!).

    I've got this app on my phone called Quit Buddy. It keeps track of days clean, cash saved and mg's of tar avoided, etc. Occasionally it'll gi'ya a nudge with some inspirational or informational message. Yesterday's said somethin' like "Feeling Happier? Studies show that heavy smokers report significantly improved quality of life and elevated mood after quitting".

    I thought: "That's Me!!"
  7. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    Ah that explains the tracking. Btw, i had to look up that word 'pom', I got the gist of the term because of the wink, but according to urban dictionary it's either an acronym for 'prisoner of mother england' or short for pomigranite, apparently a native fruit 'similar to the colour of sunburnt brit'. That last definition made me laugh. Luckily, we blessed you guys with a few good words ey ;)

    I'm always glad to hear your well, not to 'gay it up' but your like the sunshine of ybr, a cheery chap. Don't suppose you could send us some sun from Oz?
  8. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Yeah, that's what I heard, but I hadn't heard the pomegranate one! It seems odd to make a distinction, really... as Caucasian-Australians most of us can trace our heritage to the British Isles, which means Celtic, Gaelic, Scandinavian and Roman and on and on.

    Hang on: aren't we all Africans?

    With a pinch of Neanderthal thrown in?

    If we go back far enough even the other animals, the plants and the fungi are all our brothers and sisters, yeah?

    There was only one planet with life on (within coo-ee) the last time I looked... :rolleyes:

    I send some sunshine (metaphorically) your way, Cuz*!

    Big ups, M'man! :)

    *Urban dictionary got it wrong!

    Cuz, in this context is short for 'cousin' (which we all are: cousins) and simply means 'friend'.
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  9. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Just a few. ;)
  10. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Day 142> Cannabis-free... well... not quite, but anyway.
    Down from a not outrageously excessive (but daily) habit, more or less consistent the last few years. As a friend said recently: the level of usage is less important than if it's enhancing or detracting from one's life and in my case daily usage was a definite negative (I feel sooooo much better).


    I got a bit drunk last night at my friend’s album-launch and made a spontaneous decision that prolly woulda been better left until soberer times. I thought “this is a special occasion, and this is a psychedelic band: I’m going to get stoned!”.


    Not that I didn’t have a good time, or that I feel like I’ve fallen off any kind of wagon (that I’m in danger of returning to everyday usage)… just that I would like to’ve left it quite a bit longer (before breaking the drought) and to have made a much more conscious (and sober!) decision.

    What’s done is done, just that I need to stay focussed (and likely clean for a while longer) in order to not fall back in to old habits and to reap the greatest benefits of this new relationship to it.

    Unfortunately too, though, it had baccy in it so I’ve woke up seedy and vaguely craving a cigarette, also… I will have to be mindful and firm: no tobacco not neither.

    No ifs, no buts, no way, nup, never.

    Not an option, as the saying goes. :cool:

    I hope yr weekends are swell, Fellas.

    I’m off to yoga this morn, maybe a lil' catch up on some sleep this arfty and/or do some work, and my weekly dinner tonight with special friends and their small children (who make my heart go sing!).

    Peace, Brothers, peace to youse big time for real. :rolleyes:
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  11. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    Respekt Brother, I thought as much. Apologies about urban dictionary, upon reading it over, I feel it sounded pretty crude. I've known them to sometimes give outrageous egs for definitions. Sometimes they try a little too desperately to be funny they miss the mark altogether.

    Well yes, we are Africans. I might be called a lefty, but I don't believe in this business of 'nation states'. Its Our Earth, every area of it belongs to us all.

    Below is a little snip of comedy

    Ya'know what the above reminds me? That everywhere we go we have these so-called specialists, and they run our world. It was funny how his show exposed these people as fickle and naive. And I thought us addicts can wear masks, these guys are like Stanley bleeding Ipkiss out that Jim Carey flick 'The Mask'. You're still living well Billy. Keep it that way.

    I know you'se are neanderthals and homosapiens but yo i ay.

    Big up ya'self n' massive respec' G!!
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  12. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Aaaaw, m'gawd, talk about laugh out loud! That fella is an ABSOLUTE card. :D
  13. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Every time communism has been tried on a large scale it's caused millions of deaths and massive repression from the state. I recommend not falling into that trap.
    When everything belongs to everyone, it actually belongs to no one, and then the state steals it all.

    No disrespect, I just need to speak out when I see this type of thing. It's a noble goal, but it doesn't work...crony capitalism and monopoly are the real evils of the world today.
  14. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    I never mentioned communism, but anticipated i'd be perceived as leftist in today's world of categorisation, for that sole issue I believe in. I'd also share I don't believe in communism as its based on theory that predates Marx. Likewise I don't believe in constitutionalism and conservatism, liberalism either, they're too black and white. For me, humans are more complex, my beliefs on alternate issues vary as anyone else. By the same token, I'd be kidding you if I said I believed in Democracy, assuming your assessment on communism which is factually true. Even thinkers like Jefferson believed the US Constitution should be updated every 19 years, history you'd agree would prove him right. Likewise English liberals JS Mill etc thought voting should be tied to education.

    Rome and Athens fell years ago too. All democracy is, is endless talking and mob rule. Plato's predicted its demise as the penultimate of 5 stages, before tyranny. It's always this thing with colonising countries assuming people will do to them, what they've historically been doing to others without batting an eyelid. If travel was a little more relaxed, we could know each other more, the natural human disposition can't be narrowed down to avarice and greed. It's those crony capitalists you speak of that never tire of causing factions.

    Though I don't mind discussing further if you liked, I'd rather your journal or mine. I'd assume we both agree in not wanting to hijack this journal.
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  15. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    I honestly could never believe this weren't scripted. It's pretty witty when you think about it, he almost guides them into the punchlines. Like the homosapien thing and the 'floater' comment. Seriously, this guy invented trolling :p

    I hope you're feeling even better too fella. I hope you continue excelling with your goals, you've done excellent thus far :)
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  16. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    So as not to hijack, I will keep this brief. I generally believe in less government being better than more government, the less the better...and yes that will evolve based on cultures and history, but eventually more government always results in severe tyranny and abuse of power (much like what you're saying).

    Travel is wonderful, but open borders are quite the opposite, unfortunately.

    De Tocqeuville was right about America, as soon as the government finds out that it can bribe it's own people with their tax money democracy is over. And, it is indeed over. But, I suppose all cultures mush ascend and fall naturally like waves; it is sad to be witnessing the end though.
  17. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Hey BB, how's the reboot progressing?
  18. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Aaaw, mate! In general, absolutely stoked to remain three-ways clean, thanks for askin'. :)

    I am having a bit of a shit week, though. :confused: Physical illness and a few personal issues getting me down. Trying to keep in mind that these dramas are minimal in the scheme of things and that, in any case, things never stay the same (so there's no point getting too upset). That mindset been working till now but I can feel myself wearing down... it's not always easy to stay positive.

    Arrr, it'll be okay.

    It'll pass.

    It's just a bit frustrating to be functioning at such a low frequency after having made so much recent progress.

    How you doin'?
  19. NCBob

    NCBob The 11th commandment: Thou shalt not peek:-)

    Hey Billy B, glad to hear that you're continuing to stay on track - way to go, mate:D
  20. HeyRevolver

    HeyRevolver Active Member

    It's not always necessary either, ya trippy hippy :p In all seriousness, remain your vigilant self, emotions are like compasses that can guide us if we follow their roots. I could be wrong here, but earlier you mentioned looking for a lady, maybe online?!? Speaking only in a personal capacity dating sites can be every bit of addictive as p, when the subconscious is on, next thing you know, so are a couple tabs of 'potential mates'. A many of times, it's seriously interrupted the healing for me.

    In any case, I hope you afford yourself some leniency. You've put in a real graft to stare down those other habits, so remember Billy, it only got easy precisely cause you took on pmo first. Doesn't everything seem trivial once we take care of that ey? ;)

    Homie Hugs, Baby Pugs and Stay off Drugs!! (I try too hard at being a rhyming hippy)

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