Struggling to get free

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Sage, Apr 25, 2017.

  1. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    I have it....I just haven't read it. I am definitely getting started on it!
     
  2. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day One
    *Eminem voice* I'm back at it again. I just completed the day. I was feeling very positive today. I wasn't even thinking about my latest relapse at all. I did get porn flashes like twice but I quickly changed my thoughts. I accomplished everything I wanted to do today and I'm happy about that. I've just listened to a chapter of Eckhard Tolle's The Power of Now and it is very interesting and I feel like he has a lot of points. I have to disengage from the negative me. To stop seeing it as me and associating with it. I have to learn to observe my thoughts and not drown in them. Anyway,working hard to grow this week!
     
  3. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Four
    Spent the last two days at my gf's place and couldn't post.My performance with her wasn't all that at 1st but it got better with the 2nd round. I felt weak and kept having thoughts of how I'm not as good as the pornstars. I need to cleanse my mind. I'm still going strong even though I'm slacking on my career goals. I need to work harder on building a career for myself and looking for sources of income. I also need to work on sleeping early and making meditation a habit. I'm going to push myself to finish this week strong.
     
  4. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Five
    Another PMO free day. Not my most productive day but a good day all in all.
     
  5. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Six
    Taking it one day at a time. I've been having negative thoughts about self especially my ability to earn and my physical body. I need to work through that somehow
     
  6. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Seven
    I'm happy to have completed the week hoping to do the same this upcoming week. I want to be more productive this upcoming week, to aggressively look for a job, to learn more,to get more sun to laugh more, to sleep better,to read more,to delve more into spirituality and to generally manage my time better. Here's to a better week!
     
  7. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Nine
    I had a good day today.I was positive,focused,woke up early,went outside,worked out and worked on my skill. I choose to focus on those small steps forward. I am working on focusing on right now and what I can do in the moment to improve my life. No need to focus on the past or the future for that matter. What I feel now is the most important and at this moment I feel good.
     
  8. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Eleven
    Feeling good and happy! Slowly working on improving myself. I am yet to get meditation as a habit but I will! I got some urges yesterday because of staying up too late but I quickly shut down my computer and went to bed. Taking it one day at a time. Now is the only moment which matters.
     
  9. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Twelve
    I had a good day today,spent most of it with my gf. I noticed that I've been very negative towards people I'm not close to. I don't know whether me being indoors most of the time has something to do with this. I spend most of my time away from people and being an introvert doesn't help with this. Like today I was very snobby towards my gf's brother just because I've never his character at all. Was I right? I don't know but looking at how I acted now, I see that I could have acted a little bit differently. During this journey I definitely need to work on my people skills.It's hard for me but I will do my best.
     
  10. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    Day Thirteen
    I had a good day today as well. I was in control of myself for the most part. I didn't meditate which is disappointing but I will try to make it a habit. I had a pretty chill day for the most part and my mood was good. I did this intense kickboxing working which was super hard but I felt amazing when I finished it. Its pretty late so I'm going to bed now.
     
  11. Sage

    Sage Aiming to be the ultimate version of myself

    I slipped today and relapsed. It wasn't a binge but I still count is as a relapse because I submitted to the trigger and indulged it. These two weeks have shown me I can definitely do this. I don't feel bad at all right now. I'm actually happy at the progress I've made. In the month of May I've relapsed twice only that's way better coming from jerking off like 3 times every other day. I will take the lessons learnt from this run and do better. I will push on and hopefully have a PMO free month in June. In the mean time I will observe my thoughts especially tomorrow because I know the chaser effects will be there.
     
  12. AyyLMAO

    AyyLMAO Member

    Thats the way to go man. Keep it up and youre good to go.
     

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