Musicman Journal 2.0

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Musicman 2.0, Nov 13, 2016.

  1. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Great stuff! Excellent for me to read about the positive benefits of recovery as I'm in something of slump at the mo'. I think it was 40 who told me he had some major issues with fatigue in the seventies. That may be what's going on for me. It's a journey, up and down, but even in my darkest moments I can usually manage a smile at the fact that I have been clean this long and that I can look fwd to feeling better and better. Good for you, MM! I'm so stoked to see you gettin' to share some good lovin'. Have you read about Karezza?
  2. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    Billy, yea fatigue can be rough, but I'm glad you are able to manage a smile and see the positive in the struggle. 40 is a wealth of info, I have also learned much from him.

    I have read about Karezza and I'm interested to try that also. I know for me removing that pressure of having to finish could allow for a much more enjoyable free-flowing experience. Right now in a place of learning and exploration...

    One day at a time...
  3. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    I went to the beach this eve with a couple friends. That'll cheer anyone up. :)

    Actually, that's not quite true, as I have been at the beach with friends before and still been a miserable bastard!!

    Pretty sick back then, though. I think I manage my depression a lot better these days.

    Soooooo bloody good to be off the PMO!!

    And 49 days for you, Mate!

    Not to be sniffed at.

    One day at time adds up! ;)
  4. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    Soooo bloody good to be off the PMO indeed Billy!! One day at a time definitely adds up. That is and will always be my motto... Man I love the beach as well. Always puts me in a great mood.

    Well brothers, this is going to be goodbye for a while. I have finally reached my goal for coming here. Last Feb 27th I started my first journal on this site, I went over 6 months pretty much out the gate, after over 20 years of trying to quit and failing. But the combination of the support of the men I met on here as well as continuing to read learn and grow, I slowly developed a system that I feel has allowed me to get to where I am now. I am now in a committed loving intimate and healthy relationship. Its not perfect, but its perfect for me if that makes sense. The thing I love most about this relationship is that I'm not moving any faster or slower than I want to. And sexually I finally had that moment I was looking for. I finally made love without being in my head. My erection was rock hard and I had absolutely no problems from start to finish. So I'm not leaving for good, but just going to live life in this relationship and I'll stop in periodically to see how my bros are doing and also provide updates. I hope my story can inspire someone who may feel like quitting to keep hope alive, stay with it. For most of my life (over 30 years) I have felt helpless that I would never get where I am now. Its amazing how fast things can change if you are prepared when the opportunity presents itself. To all of my brothers on here that were there to uplift me when I was down and who had positive comments along the way I cant say thank you enough for you time and energy along this journey. You know who you are and from the bottom of my heart I truly say much love and I am so grateful for each one of you...

    And you know how I roll...

    One day at a time...
  5. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Great news, mate!

    Good best of luck to you, MM.

    And yes, your story is an inspiration.

    Stay gold and please, do drop in and update occasionally.

    Peeeeeeeeeas (and carrots), till next time soooooon.

    Billy B.
  6. Saville

    Saville Well-Known Member

    The trajectory of your recovery has been epic. You've written about your struggles eloquently and honestly. Many here have, and will continue to, derive great inspiration and knowledge from your journal. I am just so happy for you MM. It is, indeed, time for you to leave the forum, at least for the most part. The forum has done its job for you and there are many here who carry the torch and can lend a hand where needed. Great message to start the New Year, MM. All the best!
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  7. Awesome news Musicman! I wish you all the best and may you will be happy in this new relationship. :)
  8. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    That's awesome news!! Swing by at least once and a while to let us know how you're doing.
  9. bobjes

    bobjes Active Member

    Hey MM something deep has clicked inside you. It is a pleasure to follow your journey. What I learn from you is that everyone has their own journey it is just a question of sticking to it and the aha moment will come.
    Wishing you lots of love, laughter and confidence and trust to deal with the not so good times.
    Love ya ;)
  10. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Enjoy your new relationship. Hope all is well.

    What a wild ride life is, huh?
  11. MM, congrats on the new relationship and the new-found confidence! It's inspiring! Best of luck and continued success...keep us posted on the coming victories :)

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