Yep sometimes a day or even a week or so before you start to get that feeling creeping in, start making shortcuts in your day to day life and stop taking care of yourself to the level that you too. Then from there it's just one bad day, hangover or something to set you off into the "fuck it" and relapse. You need to be extremely vigilant and uncompromising. Develop the habits when things are going good so you can fall back on them in the hard times. I was thinking today that its been 20 years pretty much of a life mostly with porn with some clean periods but alot of periods of using multiple times per day as well and living in a shell of myself. Some really dark times. We started when we didn't know any better as kids so we have to be easy on ourselves in some ways and not feel too shameful. As well as not get cocky and complacent when we manage to be clean for a period of time.