Hello everybody. My name is Tim. I look like a normal, healthy, average, kind, friendly, intelligent guy. I don't have an extraordinarily great job, but I earn some money as a sysadmin at a small IT company and I support my parents and my younger sister. I still live with them. My problem is quite unusual. I just turned 36 and I am still virgin. To be more exact: I have no sexual experience at all. I haven't even kissed a girl. I dated some girls over the years, but I have never been confident enough to initiate anything more than hugs and holding each other's hands. And these relationships ended quickly. I am afraid of rejection, I am freaked out by STDs and getting a girl pregnant. (I know, it sounds funny from a virgin... but that's my second thought when sex pops up in my mind.) To complete my story: I have been m'ing to p*rn since I was 13. Usually I do it 1-2 times a day and there are days (one or two days a month) when I do it 8-12 times. It depends on the amount of p*rn I watch. I have been aware of the fact that it's an addiction for a few years now and I tried to quit many, many times. Even though I could completely avoid watching p*rn for a month in last december and successfully reduced the number of m/o to 1-2 times a week, I still consider myself an addict. Now I am back on the track again... :-/ My question is very complex... how could I rebalance my brain while I have no "normal state of mind" to return to? Moreover I think the problem that I am a 36 years old male virgin is almost as big as that I am a pmo addict. How could I get some experience while I am so afraid of asking out girls? Moreover women have reasonable expectations from 36 years old guys... like being independent, living alone, being over at least one marriage, having a solid sexual experience. Honestly, I thought of visiting prostitues to get over this huge obstacle with virginity... I even called some to ask about rates, locations, etc... but I felt disgusted about it. I don't want to catch STDs... I don't want to support prostitution... I don't want to use another human being as a tool... What would you do if you were in my situation? Any help, tips or personal stories are appreciated. Thank you.