It feels like cheating...

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Billy53, May 11, 2018.

  1. Billy53

    Billy53 New Member

    The strange thing is that I have these wickedly erotic dreams, always a replay of some of my old favorite porn and I wake up having cum all over the bed and with this rock hard erection. The dreams are so vivid that it feels like I have watched the porn again. I am pretty much flatlined when I am awake. Is this some form of cheating that is inhibiting my healing progress. I keep wondering if that is what is going on here.

    Thoughts?

    Billy
     
  2. NewTerritories

    NewTerritories virtual

    Maybe wear a condom to sleep.
     
  3. doneatlast

    doneatlast Active Member

    Same thing happened to me early in my reboot, though are pretty rare these days.

    I'd have very vivid dreams about myself watching porn, about as vivid as I ever get. I'd wake up thinking I'd have to "reset" and start again, but I'd be up for close to an hour before it would dawn on me that it wasn't a late night porn fest, I'd merely dreamt it. I never had wet dreams with it, but I don't get those anyway... I probably came close once or twice.

    I always considered it a "flashback"... porn is written so deeply onto our brains, that the shadows of it are still there and it takes a lot of work to erase it. It isn't cheating if you aren't doing it deliberately. In a way it is a good sign... it is like the porn in your brain suffocating and gasping for air. When cravings are strongest you want porn when you're awake. When it is weaker, it shows up in weird ways like this. The next step is is dying even more.
     
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  4. Billy53

    Billy53 New Member


    Thanks for this it is very encouraging.
     

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