I want a better life at age 36. It´s NOT too late!

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by MarstonS, Jan 19, 2013.

  1. Fry2

    Fry2 Well-Known Member

    In the same boat, man. Let's learn what to do different and manage better next time.
     
  2. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 4
    Alcohol Day 1 (total badass points 5, build the force Marston...keep building aura!)

    And so I forgot that I was supposed to be on a no alcohol streak, didn't have urges or anything but just bought a few bears to go with the barbecue. Not at all so destructive but a bit embarrasing, how can I forget such a thing. Well, back up on the horse.

    Fry2, Yes. personally I really need to stay off my computer after 8pm. 95% of my relapes happen late in the evening for me.
     
  3. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 5
    Alcohol Day 2 (total badass points 7 build the force Marston...keep building aura!)
     
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  4. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 6
    Alcohol Day 3 (total badass points 9 build the force Marston...keep building aura!)

    My right foot is swelling for no reason I can think of other than I have a standing desk and pehaps the standing all day is too much for my foot. I hope this is the case since I woulnd't want it to be anything more serious. I'll try to sit down and work today.
     
  5. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 7
    Alcohol Day 4

    Had massive urges yesterday. Addiction thoughts trying to trick me with traps like "just check if she has got a new video" "just see if that girl has upploaded a new video"....and so on.....well, this time I noticed the voice of the addiction and I asked a question to the voice. I asked "ok, then what? after I find it?".....that did the trick because both myself and the voice of the addiction knew right then and there that IF I "just check" something that means a sure relapse. So the voice went silent, and I took a workout on my crosstrainer, a cold shower and felt fine after. I could have woken up today to day 1 with a sore dick and fried brain but I didn't...and I'm grateful for it. I hope that I get to say the same tomorrow morning,

    Toay I'm grateful for

    My financial security
    My parents
    The summer
    Things I have learned thourghout my life
     
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  6. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap day 8
    Alcohol Day 5

    My vacation is coming to an end as this is the last weekday I'm free. Tomorrow is an ordinary saturday and sunday and on monday it is "back to work". Don't want to be negative but...bah, let's just say I'm trying to find another way for me to make money than my current job. I still should be grateful for having had 4 weeks of wondeful summer and free time though.

    Today I'm grateful for
    -The wondeful summer
    -My will to improve
    -Small coffe breakes during the day
     
  7. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 0
    Alcohol Day 5
    Intermitent web fasting : 0 (swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    I just can't do this. I am so incredible strong every day, the whole day, but then something happens at night. I just can't have internet access when I'm tired. It just have to go. From now on I will carry out my phone and put it in my car every day at 8:30pm ..no matter what happens, even if I just relapsed at 8:24 (just an example) (without the phone I will have no internet in my house since the phone is my hotspot wifi)

    I wasn't horny today..heck I didn't even have urges....but I was tired, and the damn surfing got my brain to, again, slip into those addiction tracks...the pathways...corridors of hell.

    This is the way it shall be... tomorrow when I wake up that will bee day 1 of my 365 day intermittent web fasting challenge.
     
  8. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 1
    Alcohol Day 6
    Intermitent web fasting : 1 (swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    First day of intermittent web fasting. I'm convinced this is what I have to do.
     
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  9. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 2
    Alcohol Day 7
    Warrior evening: 2 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    I'm 100% convinsed that this is the road I have to take. No internet for me 3-4 hours before bedtime. This is only day two but I'm going to stick to it for at least 365 days. Must stick to it!

    Work starts again tomorrow. I guess that's ok but I feel somewhat sad because the vacation ends. No anxiety yet though, and that's good, of course.
     
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  10. Gilgamesh

    Gilgamesh Seize the day

    Sounds good man. When you are in front of a screen, your body and mind don't get any rest or relieve of tension. What kind of activities have you been doing instead these last 2 days? For me internet is not such a problem. I struggle more with apathic TV watching in the evenings, while I'd better just go for a walk or read or write.....
     
  11. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 3
    Alcohol Day 8
    Warrior evening: 3 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    Ok here we go, job starts in 3 hours from now. Tothing like the post vacation blues :cool:

    Will what first hits me is that I actually stop and take in the suroundings for a while. Becoming more mindful and I like that. The activities I'we done so far is I play a little on my musical instrument, read seomething, clean something in my hoese, taking a walk and meditating. Oh, and I have been sleeping weel the last three nights...coincidence? Perhaps...time will tell but I don't think so.
     
  12. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 4
    Alcohol Day 9
    Warrior evening: 4 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    The first day of the job was ok. Not much anxiety at all but yeah, as boring as I remembered it :cool:

    As for the warrior evening, it rocks! And I will keep going,
     
  13. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 6
    Alcohol Day 11
    Warrior evening: 6 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    One day at a time...one day at a time!
     
  14. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 7
    Alcohol Day 12
    Warrior evening: 7 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    So the first week back at my job after the vacation has been ok. But, I'm not going to lie, it is hot as hell there with the summer going still. Yesterday our boss sent an sms to us all telling us we should shut down the factory 2h early and go home due to the heat. Respect! This day might get even worse due to the even higher temperature and more humidity in the air. Gotta remember to take frequent breaks.
     
  15. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 8
    Alcohol Day 13
    Warrior evening: 8 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    Handeling challenges a bit better. Let the benefits of being clean unfold!
     
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  16. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 9
    Alcohol Day 14
    Warrior evening: 9 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    One more day!

    Today I'm grateful for
    -healthy food
    -clean water
    -coffee and nature
     
  17. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    ( I promise to myself, the members of this board and swear on my granpa's grave that I will NOT have internet access in my house after 8:30 pm for 365 days. Even if I were to somehow relapse to porn I promise I will continue with the 365 days web fasting.)

    Nofap Day 11
    Alcohol Day 16
    Warrior evening: 11 (intermittent web fasting: swap mindless surfing for reading and meditating = better prefrontal cortex)

    rebooting hardmode plus zero alcohol plus warrior evening = big confidence boost.
     

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