I want a better life at age 36. It´s NOT too late!

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by MarstonS, Jan 19, 2013.

  1. Fry2

    Fry2 Active Member

    That you can listen to inspirational audio during your work is brilliant! This way you can soak in a lot of good ideas while earning money :)

    Let's not worry about a relapse. Let's draw the necessary conclusions and move on. The will to never give up is our best ally.
     
  2. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Day 2 (...of not a drop of alcohol and not a second of PMO)

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    Evening ritual: Day 2 (goal=100days) Internet shutdown: 9 pm *Perform this EVERY DAY without exception or you will fail.*
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    Morning wood: 80%
    Libido: 20%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 75%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 50%
    Bodyweight: 79 kg


    Fry, thanks my man! Indeed there will be no giving up for us!



    What am I grateful for today?

    - That I finally cut out sugar totally from my life
    - Days of freetime
    - The challenge of my musical gig tomorrow
    - That there are a million things in life I can do and only two things I can't: not have one drop of alcohol and not one second of PMO



    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  3. Fry2

    Fry2 Active Member

    Wow cutting out sugar is a big accomplishment!
     
  4. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 0

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    Evening ritual: 0 Internet shutdown: 9 pm *Perform this EVERY DAY without exception or you will fail.*
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    Morning wood: 00%
    Libido: 20%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 55%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 50%
    Last pornuse: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Good thing is that my gig went well. Bad thing is that the stress made me relapse. Getting past the first week is the hardest part. Gonna get a grip now!!!



    What am I grateful for today?

    - That I finally cut out sugar totally from my life
    - Sun is up
    - The challenge of rebooting
    - That there are a million things in life I can do and only two things I can't: Fap and drink alcohol



    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
    Last edited: Apr 16, 2017
  5. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 1 (first goal: 3 days)

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    Evening ritual: 1 Internet shutdown: 9 pm *Perform this EVERY DAY without exception or you will fail.*
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    Morning wood: 00%
    Libido: 20%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 30%
    Mental focus 65%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 50%
    Last pornuse: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Slept 11 hour this night. I must have been exhausted.

    I want to break my nofap recod now. Hardmode is easier...at least I have gone my longest streak when doing hardmode.



    What am I grateful for today?

    -My relatives and family are healthy
    - one more day of from work
    - That there are a million things in life I can do and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol

    Evening reflections:

    Going to bed after having had a clean and healthy day is what it's all about. I'm on no sugar day 7 and no fap day 1 :) Looking forward to another clean day tomorrow.



    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
    Last edited: Apr 17, 2017
  6. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 2 (first goal: 3 days)


    Morning wood: 80%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 40%
    General confidence: 45%
    Anxiety 50%
    Mental focus 60%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 40%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4




    What am I grateful for today?


    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol

    Evening reflections:





    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
    Last edited: Apr 19, 2017
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  7. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 3 (first goal: 3 days)


    Morning wood: 85%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 40%
    General confidence: 50%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 60%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 40%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Yesterday I had feeling of more introversion and shyness than usual. I said it befor and I'll say it again, mostly just to repeat for myself: PMO makes you loose your balls.



    What am I grateful for today?

    - My bodycomposition is pretty much where I want it.
    - I do not have everything I want but I have got everything I need.
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol

    Evening reflections:





    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  8. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 4 (next goal: 5 days...the five day hump)


    Morning wood: 0%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 40%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 40%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    My skin/complexion is better than it have been in a long time. I think my no sugar diet is to thank for that.



    What am I grateful for today?

    - The very deep sleep I got this night
    - That things can get better.
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol

    Evening reflections:





    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  9. Billy B.

    Billy B. PMO is NOT an option!

    Hey, Fella. I kinda lost track of yr journal for a while there. Good to see you still truckin'. :cool:
     
  10. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 5 (next goal: 5 days...the five day hump)


    Morning wood: 85%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 40%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 40%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Irritability is high today. Feel kind of stupid for logging in every day and not have anything interesting to write here but at the same time I know it is important for me ...just to keep me on track.

    BillyB, hey man. Thanks. Yes it's what I do...no mather if I relapse I still go at it again and again :)



    What am I grateful for today?

    - That I have everything I need
    - Weekend
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol




    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
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  11. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 6 (next goal: 7 days...the testosteron spike day)


    Morning wood: ?%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 55%
    Anxiety 40%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 40%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4



    What am I grateful for today?

    - weekend
    - my parents
    - food
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
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  12. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 7 (next goal: 10 days...double digits)


    Morning wood: 90%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 60%
    Anxiety 35%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 50%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    The lack of balls I have a few days after relapsing is slowly starting to go away. Relapsing and beeing an extream introvert goes hand in hand for me. Even without relapsing I'm an introvert but at least there is lesser "toxic shame" when beeing clean.




    What am I grateful for today?

    - Free food I got from my brothers girlfriend :)
    - Sun is up and birds are shining
    - My struggle. I embrace it.
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  13. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Relapse is part of recovery, each day clean is progress. Each streak gets you closer to success. Success is inevitable with streaks.
     
  14. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 8(next goal: 10 days...double digits)


    Morning wood: 95%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 60%
    General confidence: 70%
    Anxiety 25%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 60%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Carb refeed day.

    40New30, How many streaks must a rebooter walk down, before you can call him a man? *singing Bob Dylans how many roads must a man walk down * :)


    What am I grateful for today?

    - Food
    - The nature
    - My pain
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  15. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 9 (next goal: 10 days...double digits)


    Morning wood: 100%
    Libido: 20%
    Mood: 65%
    General confidence: 75%
    Anxiety 20%
    Mental focus 60%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 70%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Otherwise a good day but my gymtraining sucked. I was weak as fuck today.


    What am I grateful for today?

    - My backpain, makes me creative
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there
     
  16. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 10 (next goal: 14 days...androgen receptor upregulation)


    Morning wood: ?%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 65%
    General confidence: 75%
    Anxiety 30%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 60%
    Last porn use: 16.4
    Last alcohol drink: 16.4

    Burp!


    What am I grateful for today?

    - My livingroom
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there

    -Make people smile!-
     
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  17. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Nofap = 1


    Morning wood: 100%
    Libido: 10%
    Mood: 35%
    General confidence: 45%
    Anxiety 50%
    Mental focus 50%
    Overall awesomeness feeling 30%
    Last porn use: 26.4
    Last alcohol drink: 28.4



    What am I grateful for today?

    - weekend
    - I have cleaned my house and I like hanging around in it now
    - That there are a million things I can do in life and only two things I can't: Touch my dick and drink alcohol


    ** I'm happy with the way I am right now because the only thing that matters is progress and I AM progress. I'm a warrior. I'm strong, proud and clean. I choose self development instead of self destruction. High vibration energy is true happiness, low vibration is a lie and there is no bottom if going down that hole. If I slip down that hole, from time to time, that's OK but I will never stay there

    -Make people smile!-
     

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