Some while ago I sent in some posts on the subject of ED and the older man and the relationship between PIED and age related ED. I think that I am doing well so following the injunction of fugu the Moderator here is my story. For the record I am a fit 76 year old man who recently completed a 10 mile race in 90min. I am a heterosexual who has an occasional lady friend but I also have a long but not continuous interest in fetish cross-dressing. I have been a porn user of increasing seriousness for about 10 years, mostly fairly standard stuff but with a bias towards shemales, crossdressers and Japanese and combinations of these. The ED first showed up when I was about 65. As I expect that it usually is, I developed a certain unreliability both masturbating and fucking which was then exacerbated by performance anxiety. For the next few years Cialis worked its magic but at the same time I greatly increased my porn watching thinking that it might help – or so I told myself. This was the point that I returned to crossdressing. I remembered the days a long time ago when pulling up a pair of lace panties was instant hardon time. It sort of worked, as did the porn and I fell into all the usual patterns of porn watching behaviour. If I was in the right mood I could get a semi hardon and cum to porn without taking Cialis which, if nothing else saved money. Crossdressing probably does not turn many of you on but it is a fairly innocuous fetish and away from porn, in real life, my friend was happy to join in the play. Note that I have never wanted to be passable and go out though occasionally I 'underdress'. Now comes the bad part. About when I reached 70 Cialis started to not work. Disappointing, even worrying because 70 is not that old. But we are all different and I am lucky in being able to run so maybe this was payback. I did try more crossdressing and some other mild kinky behaviour but without success. I could – should – have talked to doctors but, probably because of my age and background that was an embarrassing idea so I headed for the web and found YBOP and this site and then bought Gary Wilson's book. And read it carefully and decided that it made sense. At least it could do no harm and offered hope. I suppose that for a 76 year old giving up on masturbation is not hard when compared to the problems for a 26 year old. I had a strong incentive to give up porn watching. I am attempting to write a book and looking for the ultimate thrill on screen wastes enormous amounts of time. I got through my first 90 days with no porn viewing, a couple of orgasms through masturbation and one fuck. My weakness was, and still is, a liking of fantasy and edging. At this point I was hoping that my problems were entirely PIED and not age related ED but I realised that that was not true. I did not really feel the need to masturbate much, I had some withdrawal symptoms – sleep problems and the like but no flatline but it did seem the there was a change. It was not so much that I was getting hardons because it became obvious that Cialis was still needed but that I was more alive and aware of my body and particularly my balls and my penis and my core. For example, I would wake in the morning not quite with a morning wood but with a definite sensation in my penis and a felling of 'nice' tension in my body. The other advice I picked up on was to stop using my hand and get a Male Masturbation Device such as a Fleshlight. I have never used the Death Grip so I did not have that problem. My technique has been to roll the head of my penis round with my thumb and finger tips. There is even a variation of this for a flacid penis which involves circling the base of the penis tightly with the thumb and forefinger of the other hand to keep blood in the rest of the penis and using the finger tips and thumb up and down on the head till you cum. Even so I did see the logic of using the Fleshlight or in my case a Tenga Flip-Hole. The YSOP article made the point that you had to fuck the device by moving your body to relearn the relationship between the body's actions and the pleasure It certainly felt wonderful and quite different from masturbating. I suppose that fucking always does, though oddly I do not remember that. I suppose that cuddling up to a warm body generated all sorts of other sensations and it is the total experience which is remembered. Anyway, the point was that practising fucking and giving up reacting to a screen were all part of the rewiring process. How am I doing. I still need Cialis but I can live with that. More important – I definitely have a libido back. Even if I do not take Cialis, and so do not get a hardon, I get a pleasant reaction to being greeted by my friend and seeing her naked. I get a very good reaction to pulling up my lace panties and especially showing off to my friend. I even get a reaction when looking at some nice bum of the street and I am feeling quite excited just writing this. I also know that if I take my pill I can get a hardon which is good enough to give pleasure and am confident that I do not have to rush before it goes away. Practising with the Flip-Hole has helped here, I do not need to have performance anxiety, it does not care if it does not get an orgasm and it will not make me feel inadequate. Have I relapsed, The answer is – not quite. I have done some things like checking on use of the Flip-Hole and on aspects of crossdressing like tucking which are near pornography and could have been triggers but I have not gone further so I think that I am OK. The proof is that I can still get it up, I can still please my friend and I can still masturbate with or without the Flip-Hole and in or out of my panties. And my book is slowly coming along. I really have to thank YBOP and YourBrainRebalaned and all the people how have written their stories and given their advice. It has made such a huge change to my life going forward. My only reservation is that it seems to have been quite easy – but it has said in YBOP that it would probably be easier the older that one was.