Today in the morning, I had the urge, and I was alone in my house. you know it is painful-like a tug of war. your good vs. your bad. But it feels great if the good guy wins. It feels really really good when you can control yourself from the craziness and I am here to feel that good again and again in the following days. Yesterday I was reading "MO19 recovery" and MO19 just showed me it's not only me, I am not alone. The pain, it is on all of us. Everybody here has to go through this. So, if they can, why can't I? Let me introduce myself. I am a 18 year old boy, addicted from when I was 12 years old. But, that isn't my concern, when did I start watching or how my past watch. only the days that are coming matters. I have started fighting the beast (yep I call it beast) about a year ago, when I found out what I was losing. I can't satisfy my positive interests and I can't improve myself if I am stuck with this silly thing. I will share my ideas and thoughts and moments here. I am currently on a vacation and most of the time I remain at home. I have to stay alone for a couple of hours each day. And from my previous experience I know this is the perfect time for the beast to attack. So, from now on I will disconnect my wifi at that time and I will do any internet work on some other time.Lets see if it works. My best streak is 20 days. It's a journey and I'm on day 1. Lets see if I can beat that.