Happy new year everyone. I don't want to make this post "a new year resolution" since things don't change abruptly just because of that. It comes naturally. Yet I still want to have a new post just to feel more "fresh". I got almost 30 days in December but eventually I failed. I've been trying all kinds of methods and now I know what the traps I usually set for myself are. 1. Naively believing that I'm recovered once I reach 20+ days. 2. Assume my mind will always remain clear and calm regardless of my physical and psychological condition. 3. Too many goals without an executable plan causes confusion, and makes me even more aimless sometimes. The reason behind all these is my insecurity. Seeing a lot of young people pursuing their dreams makes me feel really bad about myself, I can't stand with the fact that I don't know how to deal with my life. So I felt really stressed and wish I could overcome porn addiction and get my ass on the track the next day. Totally wrong mindset. Were it so easy, it wouldn't have been called an addiction in the first place. Some people know their dreams too well and are willing to sacrifice anything to realize it. Plus they don't have an addiction. I'm jealous but I can't let it restrain my mind, I just happen to not be one of them and I gotta figure it out by myself with patience. This post from zenhabits gave me some hints. http://zenhabits.net/13-things-to-avoid-when-changing-habits/ I've been learning Hebrew inconsistently for almost one year now and I want to be fully committed to it this time. I already made a plan on paper and I'll be updating my progress here and other social media daily to be accountable.