brain nourishment

Discussion in 'Ages -19' started by brainReboot, Jun 22, 2018.

  1. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    It is time to reboot my brain. I am 19 years old struggling with this since 11 years old.
    I want to quit PMO in order to rewire my brain, and regain CEO-like control of my brain.
    I know PMO damaged my brain lobes, making me process emotions poorly.

    It is time.

    Character Level (of me haha):
    Day 1:
    The Defective
    Day 4: The Incompetent
    Day 7: The Edger
    Day 14: The Conscious Individual
    Day 30: The Resilent
    Day 45: The Striver
    Day 60: The Resurrected
    Day 90: The Iron-Minded Individual
    Day 180: The Beta Male
    Day 365: The Alpha Male
     
    Last edited: Jul 3, 2018
  2. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 0

    I relapsed because I was becoming lonely with myself. I am not sure why, but I had this feeling of never making love with a girl, thus, making me want to watch porn to ease off the emotion.
    I use to journal on NoFap.com, but I hate the website design; too themed and heavy themes.

    I discovered this website my accident. I immediately loved the look of it.

    It is simple and straight to the point: forum links are on home page, and it feels more responsive to navigate (reminding me of archlinux.org)
    Anyways, it is time for my brain to reboot and nourish my lobes back to a healthy state.
     
  3. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 1 & 2

    Apologies, I couldn't journal yesterday.

    I had a rough time with my parents, arguing about my life and who I am.
    I was sobbing because of comparing myself to others, generating self-hate.

    It was very difficult to medicate the pain.
    I ended up looking at porn, but it didn't do anything. I just watched it, but did not masturbate at all. I thank myself in realizing that I didn't have any reaction.

    I woke up this morning, having an urge to watch. This is normal. It's the first week, so I must realize that.
     
  4. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 2
    Relapse!

    Dammit, I was an autopilot; I made the firm decision to watch porn without caring about the consequences.
    This is my fault: I am at home and not having any duties/responsibilities to do.
    I am applying for part-time job positions near me, so that I can get myself use to labor.
     
  5. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Relapse on Day 3

    1.
    I relapsed on Day 2
    2. Switched to Nofap, and until Day 3, I relapsed

    When I relapsed on day 2 (on this forum), I decided to switch to NoFap, and realized I was not taking it seriously anymore.
    From now on, I'll stay on this forum, regardless of anyone viewing my progress or not (because I have the desire to seek validation, and not from my own).

    I am deleting my NoFap Account.
    I am going to tweek my routine to fit my cycling routine again from long before (started 2 months ago)

    This might be the root cause of my subversiveness (seeking validation in almost anything I feel hesitant).
     
  6. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 1

    Alright it is time man.

    I coudlnt wake up 5:30AM, I fell asleep like at 2:30AM, i hate this cycle
    happens alot.

    I didnt even go to the park (cycling).
    Im just gonna keep on going with this.
     
  7. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 2

    Today was great

    I talked to my friend, and mentioned my PMO problem. He says it's just a bad habit, and I need to find hobbies.

    My real hobbies are just: linux and video games.

    He's rights; there's more activities out there.
     
  8. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 3

    wow it is day 3.

    Day 3 is honestly the day I relapse like 80% of the time.

    I am going to be conscious about this, and not let my brain get hijacked by my emotions.
     
  9. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 4: The Incompetent

    Yes, it is day 4. It's been a while since I made it this far in a long time

    I feel so proud of myself. this is honestly a real accomplishment.
     
  10. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 4
    Relapse!

    I just ejaculated twice, the 2nd time was not good at all.

    I chose to ejaculate twice for punishment, it was horrible

    I had a really strong urge, I was tired with a specific task I couldn't do on the computer, so I tried to mask the disappointment.
     
  11. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 1

    I woke up depressed, and most likely it's because of the withdrawal - this is common when experiencing a high from PMO, then the brain is wanting it back,

    Great news though: I got hired from a job, yes finally.
    Gonna start Thursday, cannot wait.
     
  12. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 2

    I had a great day with my friends yesterday at the park.
    Today, I woke up with extreme urges, mainly because I was having problems clearing my mind.
     
  13. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 1
    Relapsed yesterday

    Sorry, i didnt want to journal about my relapsed.
    Simply, i was hijacked again.

    But it is time to feel optimism; It is the first day of my job today, and I cant wait!!!
     
  14. brainReboot

    brainReboot New Member

    Day 2

    I feel a bit tired.
    But yesterday was great; first day of my job. Seem pretty easy, have to go again today.
    Hopefully, this job doesn't become too stressful.
     

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