Am I gay..?? Enough is enough

Discussion in 'Erectile Dysfunction / Delayed Ejaculation' started by Elmo44, May 31, 2014.

  1. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Still ed to women, no libido to women, I have been trying to reboot, doesn't feel like it's gonna work, I just feel like I'm suppressing my urges ?
    There is no more anxiety, I went on Craig's list today and go immediately hard to tranny ads, and fantasizing about meet up with one.. I mastirbaued and edged and orgasmed for about 2 hours.
    Then I went on some gay casual encounter ads and looked at them..
    I'm finding cross dressers are starting to arrouse me now aswell.. I'm fantasizing really dirty kinky scenarios about tranny or gay.. And having urges to act out. I feel like it's getting worse. Why is there no anxiety when it comes to this. But anxiety when it comes
    To a girl.. This is coming from someone who used
    To worship pussy, girls feet and fuck a lot of women.
    what the fuck is going on. ???
     
  2. I've said all i can say to you as far as my knowledge and advice. I saw your last post on your other topic and the thing that concerned me wasn't that you looked at porn, but that your looking at porn to test your sexuality and reaction and then your still confused as to why your still getting horny looking at tranny's and gay ads?

    How can you expect to see a difference when your doing exactly the same bloody thing?

    Abstain from any porn for a month (which is just the beginning) and then see where you are.

    Most guys find it difficult to get a hold of their addiction, but it seems like your struggling to get a grip of what your addiction is.
     
  3. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    When you say porn.. You mean craigslist right. I haven't looked at actual porn In about a month..
    I sit here and I'm just looking for more and more extreme stuff and get off. I feel like I can't get enough even tho I've mo"d 3 times already..
     
  4. When you said you got hard over some pictures of girls i thought it was porn.

    It's irrelevant what it's classified as anyway. You want to stop looking at any kind of artificial stimulation or fantasy. Wether it's craigs list ads, lingerie catalogs, a hbo tv series with lots of tits and ass. Whatever gets you off you need to stop so you can reboot and then rewire.

    I think it was you that i and others suggested if you can have sex with a girl then go for it because it will help you rewire sooner. Im not so sure thats a good idea now. I think you need to abstain for a long time to see what is left of your pure untarnished sexuality.
     
  5. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Gay guys dont look at transexual porn its purely the escalation in genre.

    If you get hard to a picture you need rewiring to get hard to a real girl.
     
  6. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Ok... So a reboot starts all over again. I feel like I have lost every bit of sexual attraction to women. Even tho when I see a hot one i just wish I could get it up
    To fuck her.. Question, why is there no anxiety when it comes to
    Tranny and gay anymore, the anxiety is towards women now ?
     
  7. wilder

    wilder Member

    Chances are you are just anxious because you, like most others, were raised in a household where being attracted to females is the only OK option.

    Like gameover said: looking at pictures means nothing. It just means that you can look at a picture and get hard.

    I too lost all attraction to woman and felt anxious when they wouldn't turn me on. The struggle was real for a very, very long time. But hey, now I have a girlfriend and I get hard every time we hangout. Not that I can always keep an erection for longer than a few minutes.. but hey, I too felt as though my desire for woman was lost at one point but it has clearly returned far into my reboot.

    TL;DR - don't worry, this is a normal part of the process and whatever you are sexual attracted to in the real world will become evident during the process.
     
  8. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Does This sound normal to you.. Even after I cum it doesn't seem that attractive to me anymore, until
    I get horny again. Will a reboot fix this, should I abstain from all Craigslist and masturbation?
     
  9. wilder

    wilder Member

    My best advice for you is to certainly abstain.

    You literally just proved that yourself. Once you orgasm things don't seem very attractive to you. To me, and this is just my take, it sounds like you are just getting your "fix" in and then moving on to something else. Then when you get horny again you react by masturbating to pictures.

    One of the great outcomes of rebooting is that you should get that natural attraction back. No more "I need a huge ass" or "big titties please" sort of craving.

    You'll notice that the more you draw yourself away from this "artificial stimuli", the more you will seek natural woman. In fact, I talked with my friends about this last night. We talked about how now that we were having sex we now preferred natural girls. The fake stuff just doesn't cut it these days.
     
  10. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Man your not undertanding.. I'm not looking at pictures.. I'm on Craig's list masturbatimg to ads for casual encounters with trannys and gays.. Women don't do it for me anymore.
     
  11. ThomasPolk

    ThomasPolk Member

    I'm sAme man minus craigslist, trannys were my drug tho not men... But I do have what I think is hocd around men, whenever I see one especially a food lookin one I get nervous and think I am gay just because I notice that they are good lookin I think I am gay... As far as trannys since I have gone the 34 days in my reboot the urges have diminished greatly, still not gone but def don't get hard on command when thought of there penis
     
  12. syndaren

    syndaren New Member

    How long did you manage to stay clean? Was it more than 90 days?

    I myself escalated into omegle sex chats that didn't match my sexual orientation. I am rebooting since february 2013 (with a few relapses, make them 10 or so). I can get hard while cuddling, kissing or touching my gf. I do feel sometimes numb, but it's usually when I have intrusive thoughts. Reboot and find yourself a girl that will want to help you, and most of all, love you. Don't aim for sex, try kissing, touching, cuddling whatnot. It takes time.
     
  13. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    The longest I stayed clean was 3 weeks I've relapsed 3 times now..
     
  14. syndaren

    syndaren New Member

    Dude, then man the fuck up and make it 3 months. 3 weeks would never be enough for someone who escalated into weirder shit.
     
  15. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    There are some pornographic images on Craigslist, and some frankly disturbing images too. Not to long ago I was viewing Craigslist to see what women was online. It not a good idea to be viewing these kinds of sites.
     
  16. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Ok... It's just confusing when I come to thinking of a girl my anxiety comes.. But when I'm mo'ing to tranny or gay, I feel like I'm in my comfort zone.
     
  17. syndaren

    syndaren New Member

    Just stay the fuck out from any kind of stimuli. Live a monks life for a while. You won't die from it.
     
  18. Brit_91_kd

    Brit_91_kd Member

    I am like that too hence the mo'ing to gay.

    Stick to it and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel man!
     
  19. Elmo44

    Elmo44 New Member

    Ok... I'm gonna reboot again.. No more of this, no more fantasizing no more Craigslist..
     
  20. ThomasPolk

    ThomasPolk Member

    Look at it this way man, youll never know til you reboot, long process but got to fo it only cjoice to get better. I was like you but with trannys and incest, those have dininished greatly urges, incest completley gone, but still have hocd, long proces
     

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