I PMO'd this morning. I used very gentle porn, but I had to M with fast strokes. I don't feel too terrible, but not good either. For most of my recovery, I've been hoping to have rough sex with a real woman. Now I've decided I can't do that. Consensual rough sex is perfectly ethical, but it would sustain my aggression. It's just not right for me. I need peace, even if it's boring.