Hey Madman, first off it's fun to address you by your screen name! LOL! I'm really glad the stuff I wrote helped you. It helps me to write it, but it helps me more when I get a response now and then and realize it helped others. I am really curious about how you have managed to go 100 days multiple times in the past? I've never gone that long, since the day I first masturbated as a child. So if you did that on a consistent basis, that would mean you would have a relapse just 3 times a year, right? If I'm doing my math right, then out of 365 days a year, that is about a 99.2% success rate. DUDE! MY BROTHER! THAT'S REMARKABLE! Tell me how to do that! But now I want you to imagine I'm a college student taking a class and I am going to drop out of college because I only have a 99.2% and can't manage to make a 100... What would you would say to someone in that situation? In my humble opinion, you know how to control PMO and have demonstrated many times you can do it. So I wouldn't focus much more attention on how to stop PMO. Do what you have done in the past that works so well, and if you stumble once every 100 days, try not to sweat it, just don't go into a binge, get started right away on your next 100 days. PMO was just a way you used to medicate how you were feeling, and sometimes you go into a binge of that old medication because your regular resources aren't enough to help you cope with what you're feeling. But that medication isn't working well for you. It produces side effects you don't like. It actually produces the opposite effect in your emotions as what you are aiming for. So you need to move on from that and find some things that work better. So some relevant questions are, what are you feeling, why are you feeling that way, and how can you deal with the symptoms and the root cause in healthy ways? What are you feeling? Try to put it into words. What are some healthy ways of managing that feeling when it is overwhelming? Make a list and work down through it when you feel overwhelmed. Exercise, prayer, meditation, reading, posting in a journal, maybe anti-depressants or some other medication would help. What is the source of the feeling? When and why did it start, maybe something back in childhood. If you look back through some of my earlier posts interacting with @HowToKapow you'll find a few ideas about how to process stuff from the past. You have my sincere condolences on the loss of your parents. I don't know what role they may have played in some of what you are feeling. Maybe there is some unfinished business with them, some need for forgiveness of them or by them or some lack of affirmation or even abuse. Just because they are physically gone now doesn't mean your dealing with them in your head is settled yet. Re: the Christian faith, I've studied other religions quite a bit and appreciate so much goodness and beauty I see in them and wise insights that have helped improve my life. A key difference I see is that every religion teaches us ways to try to save ourselves with good behavior, which is impossible to do on a consistent basis and leaves us with uncertainty about whether we've done well enough. In its ideal form, the Christian faith is a perfect God himself providing the solution for our alienation from him, then God living inside us to help us grow into the people we should be. I think we need that kind of comprehensive rescuing. I need a way of relating to God that does not depend on me achieving perfection on my own. And I find this in Jesus.