Thank you chrism, always good to hear encouragement. Good luck to you too! As for my current plan: no PMO, no MO, no counting days because given previous preconditions it doesn't matter anyway. Only sexual activity that I'll allow myself to have will be one with my girlfriend. She is really distant right now. She used to tell me she loves me every day, we hugged, kissed and fooled around all the time. Not anymore. I can't blame her. I think there's a strong chance she'll leave me in a matter of days/weeks. Until then I'll do anything I can to keep her.