Here, my mission is to track my victory overon a regular basis. I have to say that I don't smoke, I don't drink alcohol, I don't do drugs, I don't watch TV (or play videogames), I don't listen to the radio, I don't read newspapers but instead useful books (finances, psychology, health, the Bible off course) and selected articles and I want to quit music listening and YouTube & Internet distraction (basically procrastination).Age when PMO started: 6-7 (don't let female underwear magazines on the table at the living room, and hide well the porn magazine in the bedroom, and beware of that soft-porn TV also, lest that kid gets hit and destroy himself for 15 years)Age when I started to quit: 15-17 (ban the porn industry at least from the internet or just make it impossible for a teenager or kid to get it, stop the feminist lustful endoctrination and encourage real manhood with real strong smart man figures) I've been physically and psychologically abused since early childhood with violent psychopathic separated parents and also relatives. Got me enduring repercussions at school and such, being therefore very introverted and depressed since the beginning. Actually I've never been happy in my life, maybe once or twice, when it wasn't a deceitful distraction fed to me by the satanic program through my parental household. Anyway. I'm depressed and brokenhearted because I attracted stunning girls during mainly highschool and I was already struggling with relapses at that time, and now they're gone, I can only contact them through mail or Facebook but they're not answering or when she answers it's to show me that she doesn't want me (whereas she was the one showing me interest) because it's been 5 years now and whatever, but they are already defiled and wasted probably so that's why I feel bad like I missed the heaven sent opportunity for me to live my dream life with my dream wife maybe, because I don't want any non-virgin girl. And now I'm in my twenties in a critical situation with clear goals and profitable knowledge to apply and a heavy depression to surpass in a wicked perverted society currently. NO PMO-Lust is the necessity for me to break free and finally live my life as the person that I am. But now currently heartbreaks still grieve me a lot, girls are too much whorrish and feminist modern harlots and even if I'm virgin who never engaged with any, I am very sensitive especially in that area, so I really think I might just end up alone and virgin because women are just poisonous programmed entities now in the modern areas and almost worldwide and it's like all is designed down here to keep me and people in general in that fake satanic robotic depravity and that breaks my heart really bad mainly when I miss the opportunity with a potential wife-material girl but even though she might also as well be a perverted evil cheating vampire during the relationship playing a role to boost her ego or whatnot, and I really consider suicide but I would prefer to live my life that I wish for me so I let God's grace operate on me as I stay clean. It's a horror nightmare that I live daily emotionally, mentally, and even physically as it is all linked. This is just prophecy that people and the world are just fulfilling by getting always more lost and toxic, taking romanticized filthy lust for actual genuine love, completely crazy sickening. So that's it. Maybe God chastises me through this in order for me to realize how harmful and useless and wrong lustful delirium is but I guess He may have a great gift for me in the area of marriage that will turn my tears of sadness into tears of happiness. (Napoleon Hill - "Think And Grow Rich") Popular Porn Site Reveals Women Search For Hardcore Genres More Than You Might Expect https://fightthenewdrug.org/data-reveals-women-are-searching-hardcore-genres/The feminist communist pre-luciferian crazy circus agenda to keep the masses in control by disqualifying, shaming, attacking, ignoring and keeping men's DIGNITY under silence, disgusts me so much that I am fleeing the western Babylonian matrix rationalized as "modern" ASAP to my own real home, PRESERVING myself from these succubuses and zombies, and despite all the social engineering program done to keep me trapped in that man-hating porn culture by design through the suggestive assaulting advertisements bombarded to us in the medias and tight fashion and even some laws, and even though I've been bullied by that brainwashing since childhood !!! Time to live my real life as the real man that I am !!! Growing in Christ receiving God's grace ABOVE these silly fading interferences.Man's value increases as he ages whereas woman's value declines around 30: that's why she may lure you in her seductive ways and pressure you with the legal set up to make you her financial and material blood-bake before she hits 30, distracting you from your own dreams and aspirations, and that's why the government corrupts her in luciferianism to keep you for that snare she's been taught instead of a genuine loving connection, so that men and the masses in general be powerless and confused and easily controlled to feed that same ratrace marketing scam paradigm, the communist institutionalized promoted slavery from which you break-free to be your real self far away from that rationalized mad prison of lust-fear-stupidity-melodrama been advertised.I am also virgin heterosexual (content with it), hispanic, financial and location freedom minded, handsome and attractive enough, logician or architect personality type, got a decent little black car, studies and job opportunities I apply to here and there, passive income and permanent expatriation goals, health with workout and cleanses and good diet minded, outsmarting the rationalized mediocrity system basically. Remember how anxiety decreases overtime, as you keep on breaking through the egg of learned helplessness, EXTENDING your comfort zone, breaking the mediocrity cycle. Just like toxic emotions are only fading, replaced by bliss and joy. You don't learn to swim by reading a book. We all fall before walking, before riding a bike, we all fail before driving as well. Let your growing character surpass and overcome your challenge. Just get it done. Let your snowball take its power. Like any other trap, PMO-lust is easy to get into and harder to get out of. Be patient, enjoy all the ease that you have if you feel lonely, remember all that you went through if you feel guilty. Let it flow and let it grow, healing in your recovery. Let the withdrawals disappear when they pass. Let your bright lovely wishes be attracted offering themselves completely to you. Just let it float higher and higher to your real self, away from the nonsense despite the lying programs and the brainwashed zombies and succubuses. Glitch your way out of it, surpass it naturally. It's alright. My vital creative asset is my fuel for achievement, my energy of execution. So precious is this force that it leads to sanctification, power and money. Don't drain it with porn or masturbation or "sex", the cost is too much heavy for your current youth situation. Guilt, despise from others, shame, weakness, fog, stress: if you aren't financially free and secured, you can NOT afford it, trust me, and it is NOT worth it. Stay on your blissful ecstatic sublimation route. Why in the world would you trade it for any deceit (that will lead you to deeper misery) ? The flesh is your surfboard rising on sexual waves to your unknown exciting real powerful blissful accomplished self in Christ: that's one of the mysteries you enjoy in God's grace as you grow and rise throughout the sex-vibrations that trap most people in powerlessness; that's your blueprint as a partaker of the inheritance of the saints, and you see it leading you to your spiritual, material and physical exceeding blessings; let your temple fortify itself by the grace of God. The world gets worse, and you get only better, for the Almighty LORD Jesus Christ who saved you from sin and death at the cross, burial and resurrection is coming back to give you your glorified body and more at the rapture coming soon before the tribulations. _Motivation, enthusiasm, determination, achievement of my goals _Strength, charisma, authority, approval from anybody _Charm, attractiveness, beauty, desire _Clarity, serenity, certainty, peace of mind _Energy, lightness, better sleep, better transit _Optimism, laughter, clear conscience, sense of bonding These are a few benefits I got naturally during abstinence (61 days is my longest streak as I'm writing this sentence).