So here's a little background of me: - 15 years old atm. - Going to be a Junior in high school soon. - Started PMO at around 5/6 grade (not sure how old) - My grades in school ever since I found out about PMO has dropped horribly now that I think of it. I used to be above 3.0 (elementary) then ever since middle school I don't think i've ever gotten back to a 3.0. - I might consider myself a chronic fapper averaged maybe at least twice a day usually for a long time. - Been trying to quit my PMO addiction since December 2012. I know that's long but this is the hardest thing i've ever done. - My longest streak has been around 30 days and i've been there two or three times. Side notes: - Before I found out about YBOP or anything I had a streak of about a week and was fapping maybe every other week and was feeling great so this can't be completely placebo. Feelings: - Whenever I relapse or am PMO frequently the feelings I feel are usually guilt, shame, disappointment, feel very angry at myself for failing, not being noticed much, voice is weak, no energy, hard chaser effect to want more but I know I shouldn't, Pimples start to come more often and take longer to go away, feel very unsocial, little anxiety(due to previous streaks practically eliminating the feeling,) tired all day, no motivation to do stuff,and just overall feel worthless. - Whenever I am on nofap/no PMO the feeling I feel are just simply amazing. I'm more happier, get more competitive, no acne, feel and get more social, actually was getting teachers mad at me for talking in class which never happened before, confidence sky high, no anxiety at all, feel more respected, I get more aware of and at thing, look better, crazy amount of energy, way much more free time, more motivation to get things done, sleep feels great, dreams feel real and get more vivid, more outgoing, deeper voice, I also somehow feel taller, usual boring stuff such as cleaning my room or washing the dishes turn fun(no lie,) my scrotum gets huge, love every opportunity to hang out with the homies, a whole lot more eye contact, girls actually calling me over to them, I spit some nice game also haha, I get more angry at the right times which I like, and... Yeah plenty more. Will add as I remember or else have new benefits. What I want to be known as: - What I really want to see myself as is an outgoing fun social guy who is great to be around. I want to be great with the ladies or at least have some female friends which I talk to on a daily basis. I want to be athletic. I want to have good grades. No more settling for less, just reach for the best. I want to have a nice job which I will enjoy. I want an amazing girlfriend which I will commit 100% of myself to. And I want to be the best that I can possibly be. - What I don't want to be known as is the guy under 2.0 gpa. I don't want to be known as the wanker. I don't want to be wasting my precious teenage time sitting at home fapping away to some women that i'll never see in my life. All this can ONLY be done by me beating my PMO addiction. It's as simple as that. I feel good writing those. That right there is my motivation. I will post regularly on this. Remember to take this lifestyle one day at a time. I will stop my PMO addiction. I'm SICK of this. No more fucking fails. I feel sick about myself. I will read this over and over again whenever I get a strong urge. It's not worth it. Thanks for reading and any advice/tips are always appreciated. Even a simple "keep going man" will help me tremendously. Stay strong bro's!