18- Time to Reclaim My Throne

Discussion in 'Ages -19' started by artoftherighteous, Aug 2, 2016.

  1. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Hey everyone, I want to start out by saying I have plenty of goals in mind. I'm heading to college in another month. I have a life to restore. And I'm going to kick PMO's ass once and for all.

    I made accounts on this website before and stopped posting, soon giving up. I've battled PMO knowingly since my freshman year, but started in 6th/7th grade. I have gone on countless streaks of one week. Few two weeks. And this summer was able to make it over a month and a half. There's alot I wish to share with the teen section and the world about the knowledge I've gained.

    I know now, that no one can defeat this curse by living the same life. You have to force yourself to focus on goals and a brand new life in order to overcome the demons of your past. How many of you watch porn in your room? In your bed? At your computer? Think about the scenarios. I don't know about you guys, but if I didn't have time alone, I would not be watching porn. Now I'm not going to explain what I already learned from guides you can find at this website, read through them btw, but I will say that if you are not changing your life, changing the way you live, you will not win. And neither will I.

    I don't care who reads this and who sees this because I will make a story for days to come. About a man who rose to his throne once and for all thinking he defeated the powerful PMO, but then dropped his guard and lost. It was in late spring of this year that I met my girlfriend. I was only on about a week or two of PMO when I very first started talking to her. I thought to myself, "Hold on, if I give in now, I'll stop wanting to talk to her and I'll lose this girl who I truly believe is the change in my life." From that point on, some nights with wars that would shed more blood than any fantasy battle one can imagine, I went on a solid streak with her support of a month and a half. This was due to a combination of things. One of those being, connection. I never had close friends or got outside much aside from football and lifting weights. My time often consisted of playing online games like League of Legends. It was then on that my life involved actively taking my time out of my day to meet someone, interact with others, her family, go places and enjoy life. I cannot tell you how important it is to get outside and just keep seeking connection. Just do something. Please. The worst thing we can all do in this battle is find ourselves bored. That's when the thoughts creep in. And once we look once, we know what happens next.

    How did I fall? I stopped caring. I went BACK to my old lifestyle of late nights on the computer. I STOPPED reading books and focusing on my art. I STOPPED actively seeking connection not just with her but with others. I became OVERLY CONTENT with my life. And lost it all. She's still with me, thank heavens. However, I know in my heart there is a huge difference between the me she fell in love with and the man I am right now. I will not become that lesser version of myself again. If you guys want to know more benefits just read up on threads here, but I assure you, confidence and many other things about your life will increase. The women will come. Just keep focusing on changing your life for the better.

    Wow, I made this journal for myself, but I felt like it was a speech. Ah well. Hopefully this motivated you guys because I do not plan on losing to this curse ever again. I want my superpowers back. My way with words. My ability to attract and converse with anyone. My glowing eyes with life. My love of life. My life. I'm getting it all back and reclaiming my throne, mark my words, this will be a story of the decades. There will be rainy nights and thunderous storms, but we all control the weather in our own lives and I'm making mine clear sunny skies for the rest of eternity! Let's go men!
     
  2. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Another great day closer to success and understanding my mission as a man in this world. Reading much of the Red Pill and am opening my eyes to an idea I once tried to avoid earlier in this journey. Seeing the world in a different way. And I will dominate it.
     
  3. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    There's plenty of contradicting feed back on "The Red Pill" (reddit) however I am here to say that I believe it is a great read for ANY MALE in this battle against PMO. Already in what I would've accomplished in A WHOLE DAY I have completed by noon. This is just the start. Check out the Handbook if you haven't. Will change your mindset and make this battle a lot easier to comprehend. If a general does not know what is going on or where the enemy is firing at his army will lose every single battle. Know your enemy. Know what you're fighting. Know what you're fighting for.
     
  4. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Reading Laws of Power by R. Greene. Worked out in the Morning. Went for a jog afterwards. Staying focused on my goals and only using the internet for information or updating here. Good day to everyone.
     
  5. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Another great day just checking in here. Reading "The Rational Male" by Rollo Tomassi. All this was at first tough to swallow, but now it's going down easier and has been a key contributor to me not even thinking about PMO and focusing on my life. Becoming the strongest version of my self and reclaiming my throne. Today mightve been a lazy day. Wasn't feeling too hot. Then got my lazy ass up, read OUTSIDE which was nice and then had a wonderful jog. Cheers to more productive days bettering ourselves in all aspects ~
     
  6. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Confidence and knowing you're the shit is the key. Sometimes you're gonna slip up with this, but the major point is to recognize it and be aware so it does not happen again. Had a little approach anxiety with two girls today. Obviously regret was there. Next time gotta go for it. (Was in grocery store) Who cares? Worse that can happen is they laugh or ignore. Then you probably will never see them again.
     
  7. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    There's no excuses for this, but I'll admit I've been getting a little lazy with my reading. A lot of life questioning going on in my head. I'm stuck. In my attempt to reclaim my throne I've hit the biggest wall in my life. Nothing to do with PMO, though I must be careful in these times of random depression/anxiety and trying to break out of this curse. Old habits are biting at my calves now. Major youtube and video game withdrawals. I will win.
     
  8. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Social anxiety is starting to go fully away again. Confidence is up and I don't let small things bring me down anymore. Had an AMAZING leg day at the gym and I'm still full of energy. It's like I was recovering faster and still was pumped up. Met with some people going to my college today and held me own with two girls much better than in the past. There were times where I felt and knew I started to talk a little fast, so I'd say two mistakes for that day, but other than that I was making eye contact, calm and communicative. Also some small fidgeting towards the end of the night in my smile/smirk due to the social anxiety, but again fellas MUCH LESS and I pretty much led the group and I was the who led the girls on my sides (rest of the kids were guys).
     
  9. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Need to stop going to bed at 3am. No relapse, but it's just a bed habit. Resting legs for this weekends conditioning, squatted great yesterday so just walking and stretching. More reading and finding out what I want to do in life. I've had occasions where I would almost have a wet dream, but I've been fighting this thing so long I actually wake up on my own to stop it.
     
  10. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Was going to be super lazy today, but forced my ass to go to the gym. Totally worth it, eating well, meditated last night and getting back on track with other goals in my life.

    EDIT: I won't lie, at this time tonight, I'm really really horny. Like day 13 I think and have been extremely tempted to cave but I learned my lesson. Just "taking a peek" will result in failure.
     
  11. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Terrible ass day. Been PM-ing on and off. I'm not going to "reset" my counter because I feel it defeats motivation and I did not O. Harm done. Lessons learned. When you are super horny please just stay as far away from your phone or whatever you use as you can. You'll get tricked and fall into a ditch. Seeing my girlfriend tomorrow so hopefully some cuddling oxytocin release will even out everything without O-ing.
     
  12. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Having a girlfriend helps I'm not going to lie. Such a blessing. Able to continue plowing forward. Best of wishes to everyone that is battling this and desires one for support. It is because of her support that I'm able to fight this now.
     
  13. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Visited girlfriend again today, lots of good cuddling hormones going on. I feel it does help suppress the urge for that digital release of PMO. Had a good workout early on. Gotta stay focused on goals and reading.
     
  14. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    I've been blessed with a very caring girlfriend that is supporting me through this. Just want to say to all the guys that real life interactions with real people will speed up the process especially girls, but the main point is to get out there. Many of us have become anti social and we may think it is our nature, but it is actually just PMO and finding the right people.
     
  15. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Football is pretty tough, at college now, haven't really had time to even think about PMO
     
  16. koolman

    koolman Member

    Good job for the progress glad your finding things to keep you busy. Your right connection is very important during this battle I hope you continue to be victorious in your battle.
     
  17. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Hey thanks! Appreciate the comment! And yeah, that's definitely been a major help. Distractions with hobbies and connections make the battle won without even having to actually fight it 99% of the time.
     
  18. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Going great still, college and football keep me constantly preoccupied. However I am back here because I wanted note that I've had porn dreams (dreams of myself conflicting with the thought of looking up porn on a device) the past 2 days. I'll admit I am extremely horny especially today, but still thankfully I'm going to continue to be preoccupied. Best wishes to everyone to continue to stay positive and keep plowing forward!
     
  19. koolman

    koolman Member

    Thanks stay strong man
     
  20. artoftherighteous

    artoftherighteous New Member

    Broke up with hometown girlfriend. Still in college and still going strong. Feel free, have been tempted hard past couple of days, but my willpower has definitely grown. More updates to come, want to focus on my goals in life, revolving around developing my art, reading and learning as much as possible.
     

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