17 years old. PIED recovery. Update: Day 80- false alarm

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  1. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Soo i'll make it short. im 17 . I started to PMO since 13 and i kinda done it almost daily and sometimes once per week but sometimes twice per day. So i had several Gfs in my life for now and had no problems until some months ago.
    I have a girlfriend for 9 months now and I discovered I have PIED :( . One day i came to her house and we started kissing and undressing , i had a erection but wasn't 100% it was like 50% and I was like WTF is wrong with me? . I started searching for answers and didn't saw this site and the PIED thing so i decided maybe to cut down on PMO. I did that too and second time when i came to her house same shit happend. She didn't mind tho because we are both VIRGINS.
    This time i searched deeply and luckly i found this PIED problem. So i talked to my gf and explained her everything and she is willing to help me <3 .

    I'm Still pretty freakin' worried about myself :( i'm on 2 weeks streak right now on hardmode and i already had 2 wet dreams. I still have morning wood but not every day. I'll NEVER EVER come back to PMO and i hope MO too. I hope one day i will be able to have succesfull sex and get cured completely.
    How much should it take?

    I will update this post every two weeks just to let you guys see what's heppening. I'm a noobie but I still want to share my experience.

    Wish me luck :( luv ya all
     
  2. Greg123

    Greg123 Member

    Re: God Damn Why im here. Starting my journey ( 2 weeks already)

    Good luck to you :))
     
  3. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member

    Re: God Damn Why im here. Starting my journey ( 2 weeks already)

    90 days is the "minimum" for the reboot to be "completed" around here. So I suggest you have that number in your mind and never lose faith. I think since you are young, you will probably be able to have successful sex then, but everyone's different so you never know until you actually get there ;)

    Good luck to you, and I appreciate the love ;D
     
  4. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Re: God Damn Why im here. Starting my journey ( 2 weeks already)

    Ty man
     
  5. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Re: God Damn Why im here. Starting my journey ( 2 weeks already)

    I guess for me will not be that hard i mean , qutting porn is not a big deal , i don't feel that need to masturbate either. But the big problem is that i need patience with myself and this problem of mine. Ty for wishes :)
     
  6. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Re: 17 years old. PIED recovery. Starting my journey <3

    -Day 17 -
    WET DREAM?
    LUCID DREAMING?
    Well this morning i almost had one . I was dreaming about a sexy lady and me rubbing all her "things" even tho she didn't wanted to. Aand i was feeling that sensation in my penis and i was ready to cum but in the dream i realised that im on nofap hardmode and i dont wanna cum and i just woke up like it was a nightmare XD

    Is this a good thing or not ? pls let me know :)
     
  7. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member

    Re: 17 years old. PIED recovery. Starting my journey <3

    It's just a natural thing, don't worry too much. :) I've had plenty of weird "wet" dreams but where I don't end up cumming. As you progress in your reboot, your dreams will begin to change more to "natural" type.
     
  8. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Re: 17 years old. PIED recovery. Starting my journey <3

    Well then :) i'm on a good road
     
  9. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Heyy guyss :) So it's been a month and 2 days since i last pmo or mo and things started to get brighter :) I have some good news and little bad oness.
    Good News:
    -I started to have erections with my girlfriend even in public when kissing and sitting down. Yesterday i got a pretty solid one :)
    -Morning wood is now a bit harder
    -i already got some spontaneus erections, those are usually the rock hards

    Bad news :
    -Fucking wet dream happend this morning and i lost my libido and i feel like my penis is weak again. :( i hope it recovers back , i know it will but i don't feel good seeing it like this :(
     
  10. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Bad News for me .. last night i was at my girlfriend's place. I attempted to have sex with her . so this is how it all happend:

    Got into her house and gave her a first kiss. then we laid down a little and my dick was getting a erection. but i had pants and jeans on and i could feel my dick wanting to get out of there. i could feel the blood pumpinh through it , and this was in the first 5 mins of laying down , on this time we kissed a little , not too much tho which is weird how i got aroused by a few kisses.
    Anyway , i got confident and i asked her to lay down on the big bed in her bedroom. So this is where the shit happend .. :(
    We started to undress till we got both naked , and in this time my dick just went from good to worse.. and the arousing kinda disapeared and my dick went to a 50% erection and i couldn't really feel too much.
    She even tried to turn me on with her hand by Masturbating me slowly and careful but shit got worse .. I tried to penetrate her and i couldn't cause she's a virgin so am i . I tried to please her with a oral, Btw it was my first and last one (it's not that tasty)
    I ended up when she gave me a MO.. And I don't know... Should i reset my whole progress? I mean it wasnt porn. It was something real , But still not a vagina.

    Please tell me if that MO counts as a relapse. my penis was kinda 80% when i had O.

    So until this day i had pretty solid erections in the morning and good other ones during the day.
    But when things get hot , for me are getting scary now.

    She knows about my journey and she's fine with it but my hope is pretty much gone. I don't know if i should restart the days counted and start over again . Please reply guys . I really need your opinion . Thank you all for being here.
     
    Last edited: Dec 1, 2016
  11. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    So I decided to take it over again because my girlfriend gave me an MO after the sex attempt. Today i woke up with a pretty solid boner but i think it's a craving. I'm kinda sad to start it over again. But i can't give up , This Pied needs to vanish from my life before it's too late.
    My gf didn't wanted to have sex all this time because she feels she's not ready. So me and her decided to cut down the erotic "play" until we have sex ( which will not be so soon, i guess it will take some months) this way it will be easier for me to not MO at all or let her do it either.

    Today is the day 2 for my journey. My goals :
    -Never PMO again
    -Never let my gf MO me again (this is why i start again , just to be sure of my counter)
    -Have succesful sex with my Gf without any ED problems ..

    I really need your opinions on my joourney. Thank you all for being here beatiful people.
     
    Last edited: Dec 3, 2016
  12. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member

    It seems like you are progressing well man. I wouldn't call it a relapse in my opinion since there wasn't any porn related, and your girlfriend did it. But I would be careful of the chaser effect because an orgasm is an orgasm whether it is through sex or masturbation. I don't think you'll have any problem with staying away from porn and completing the reboot successfully :)

    I don't have PIED (at least I don't think so because I've never had any real sex lol), so I don't know how bad it must feel, but you've got to realize that your thoughts reproduce themselves in outward physical action and gradually transform themselves into physical reality. You need to have confidence in yourself that even though your dick is not fully working right now, the time when it works extremely well is coming. Visualize yourself having successful sex with your girlfriend and both of you enjoying it in detail everyday(but be careful not to go overboard so that you decide to relapse lol). Write down at least one positive affirmations related to your fear of not being able to perform well and read it morning, noon, and night until it gets deeply embedded into your subconscious (you probably won't know consciously that it has been embedded so just keep repeating until the day when it becomes a reality). I know that it's super embarrassing to be unable to perform in front of a girl you like, but if you want it bad enough you've got to try whatever works, right? You've got to be prepared for the day when porn is no longer a problem for you, so that when that time comes BOOM you can have successful sex with your girlfriend. If you aren't prepared, the opportunity will pass you by. So do the most you can right now by plugging in any leaks in your effort to rid yourself of PIED, and that includes visualizing what you want in vivid detail (to the best of your ability) everyday and reading positive affirmation every day, noon, and night with full faith that no matter what the current situation seems right now you will get what you want.
     
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  13. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Oh man , you put some effort writting me here. :) i really really appreciate your support.
    So it's not a relapse tho. i'll continue with my old counter then. So I gotta stay positive all the time and believe in me ,believe that the cure will come and i'll be free of any problems :)
    I really want to perform with my girl. She deservers the best of me. You really inspire me :) I will think at exactly how i imagine that pleasure , that relief everyday.
    I'm gonna get rid of my 90 day goal, that's not a goal. The goal is to give myself the time i need for healing, No matter how much it will take. Porn in not in my life anymore.

    So i have a question for you bro , Do the orgasms slow down the healing process of PIED?
    I'm afraid they do so that's why i'll try to stay away from anything that's not sex.

    Thank you so much for your reply!
     
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  14. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Oh and one more question : what are those green lines on your counter ? how do they work ? ty again for the heads up <3
     
  15. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member


    No problem! The way you seem so driven and honest makes it effortless and enjoyable to respond back :)

    I'm no expert in reboot or PIED so I can't really say whether it slows down or not. But from the experiences of other people I've read on yourbrainonporn.com such as those mentioned below, I would say that you don't have to worry too much because even a wetdream is an orgasm and many people with PIED recovered even after like 4~5 wet dreams. As long as you don't do PMO or MO yourself because you're caving into temptation, I think you'll be good to go ;) Another bonus you have is that you are young!

    I have pretty bad PIED and was in a flatline the whole entire time
    I suffered PIED since I was 17: now my erections are like middle school
    ED cured - PIED took away my first love...but that gave me the strength I needed
    PIED cured. It's like my brain has developed a firewall to looking at porn
     
  16. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member

    The green lines are tick marks that track my progress on a daily basis. Instead of only showing what day of Nofap I'm on, it allows me to see the frequency and the time between each relapse so that I can gauge whether I'm progressing or not. One green tick mark gets added automatically everyday if you did not relapse. If you did relapse you would click on the counter and press reset counter. Then the green line would turn into a red line. It's just a terrible feeling clicking on it because all your progress will be "gone" and it just says to the people who read your posts that you've just relapsed lol

    If you want to have your own counter click on my counter then it'll show "not your counter" or something like that. You click on that and it'll take you through the process. You can add the tick marks by pressing on "customize counter" after you have created your counter :)
     
  17. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    It's easy to stay away from porn to me and from MO. But I feel a little bad today because i fantasized like 4 seconds about me having sex with my girlfriend and i got hard just from that.
    From what i know , fantasizing activates those porn path in your brain... damn i feel so bad.
    I hope it's not a big trouble for my reboot. I just don't know
    Sorry if I am too pesimist . I am just too cautious .
     
    Last edited: Dec 6, 2016
  18. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Thank You! i'm going to try that out .Im gonna make it to 90 days in my first try. I'm on day 38 since my last pmo . Today got a test to pass at school and i have to learn and keep my mind busy with something
     
    Last edited: Dec 6, 2016
  19. Matei99

    Matei99 I hope One day I'll be cured

    Day 40 : wetdream

    So 1 week ago my gf gave me that MO. I know that in 1 week is the teostesterone spike so i think my body just couldn't resist, I guess lol.
    But I'm too happy to have worries now. Today i'll buy a new phone for myself :D . Never had a good phone in years. I'm Hyped.
    I'll See How it goes next week, don't want to have wet dreams anymore. I think The chaser effect was a little cause i still woke up with a boner. ( Dream happend during the night not morning)
    Anyways Thanks to @TheYoungOne for being so active on this forum and supporting other guys . You are awesome bro ;)
     
    Last edited: Dec 8, 2016
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  20. TheYoungOne

    TheYoungOne Member

    Wow! What a reward you've got for yourself! ;) That feeling of precious awesomeness of new phone is so amazing. I hope you get what you want :)
     
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